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I'm on the couch, cats nearby, dancing on television.
No matter how many tears have fallen, more lurk, waiting.
My mother's tears still ring in my memory.
Only one thought runs through my mind:
I want to go home.

But I don't know where that is.

The Milky-cat appears to have the first signs of kidney failure, and possibly high blood pressure. He'll be going in for more tests on Saturday. It's a matter of maintenance, not treatment. I was doing all right until I asked my mother how she was doing, and she started to cry. Work was frustrating, and every day I don't have a permanent job lined up, I panic more. I start thinking that I made a huge mistake leaving my old job - sure, I hated it, but it paid the bills and meant I could take care of my family. I never should have left.

It's not a great time to be a Stephie right now.

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gamethyme
Jun. 11th, 2009 05:39 am (UTC)
 
deleva
Jun. 11th, 2009 05:48 am (UTC)
::Hugs:: Let me know if there's anything I can do...
morningdozer
Jun. 11th, 2009 01:06 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry Steph. I don't know if it was intentional or not, but the first part reads like a poem and it was evocative and beautiful. Take care of you, okay?
pict_shrink
Jun. 11th, 2009 02:12 pm (UTC)
::bighugehonkinhugs::
redsouffle
Jun. 11th, 2009 03:38 pm (UTC)
also *hugs*
robertlyon
Jun. 12th, 2009 12:13 am (UTC)
My dog had to be put to sleep for kidney failure. It sucked. I stumbled across your journal, mind if we become friends? The name's Rob.
zzinnia
Jun. 12th, 2009 04:18 am (UTC)
oh, steph. i am so sorry. i wish you all the love. i know from whence you feel this pain.

will you get to go visit milky kitty soon?
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