December 20th, 2005


Another email from the ex

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Several things:

This is the ex with whom I had the most painful breakup of my life. This breakup led to many, MANY arguments about who did what, and every time, it came down as being entirely my fault. I was the cause of the breakup, and the resulting drama. At least, that was the decision made during and after the arguments. If he wasn't willing to take any responsibility then, what makes me think he would now?

I've told him that we need to stay out of each other's lives. We were great friends, ok lovers, and rotten exes. The transition between the stages was awful, and has made it (in my mind) impossible to return to the beginning. He had agreed, and now he's bring this up again.

I've gotten over him. The breakup took a bit longer to get over, and I feel like the scars have faded - not gone completely (I don't think some of them will ever go away), but not something I really think about anymore. Now, it's being brought up again.

I have the option of being truthful, telling him how I feel, and helping him get through whatever he's dealing with. Or, I can ignore it and move along with my life, as it's no longer my responsibility to help save him. My concience would hate me, but I might be able to move on more effectively. I'm getting married in a few months, for crying out loud!

OD kitten

In other news

I just received two large bags of M&Ms from one of the teams I translate for, along with a Dr. Seuss thank you card. *warm fuzzies*
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