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I'm trying to convince myself that yesterday's crankiness does not need to spill over into today. Problem is, the things that initiated the cranky yesterday have not gone away. So, here's hoping that ranting about it a bit will get it out of my system, so I can just freakin' move on. I hate being cranky.

I am a number of things. In no particular order, I am a gamer, an avid reader (who tends to read things that don't show up in Oprah's book club), a wannabe librarian, an actress, a make-up artist, a lover of cats, a flower fanatic, and a geek of many flavors: Broadway musicals, theater in general, linguistics, cross-stitch, stagecraft, children's books, ancient Egypt, and others. I am a wife. I am detail-oriented. I am a college graduate. I am unwilling to let a thing rest half-done. I listen to music that doesn't really flow with the mainstream. And dammit, I like all those things about myself.

So WHY do my coworkers feel the need to make fun of every single thing I just listed? Why do they feel compelled to make sure I know I don't fit in with them? I'm back in high school with every day I'm on this job. I've taken to simply sitting quietly and working as hard as I can, just to avoid conversation, because I know it'll end poorly, with my opinions and tastes, my likes and dislikes, being questioned and mocked. Admittedly, it's not as blatant and, necessarily, awful, as it was in high school, but the subtle nature makes it worse, because now I can't tell if it's actually happening or if I'm just projecting it.

I know I'm being oversensitive, and I know I have to bloody well deal with it. Somedays, though, I need to rant before I explode.




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Oct. 10th, 2006 06:13 pm (UTC)
you want i should make with the stabbing?
or with the kicking?
it might not help long term, but imagine the immediate enjoyment.
Oct. 10th, 2006 08:02 pm (UTC)
People mock what they don't understand.
Oct. 10th, 2006 09:46 pm (UTC)
Not all people. Broad-minded people don't understand things, but they know they don't understand, and they don't mind.

Small-minded petty people mock what they don't understand.

But there's a reason that Stephie does this job better than they do. Because she's smart and they're not.
Oct. 10th, 2006 08:50 pm (UTC)
And yet, all those things are wonderful, and make you who you are, and who we love.

The co-workers? Jealous, and likely intimidated by what they don't understand.

How dare you be happy with something other than a "mundane" existance?

:hugs: We love you just the way you are!
Oct. 11th, 2006 11:05 pm (UTC)
So, armadillos or kneecap party?

I agree that you probably work with a group of petty people who mock what the don't understand, and also probably a larger group of insecure people who go along with the strong-appearing petty people in order to fit in. Honestly, these folks likely recognize on some level that you are a lot more worldly and have greater potential than themselves, and they're afraid of that, so they try to bring you down to their level. Either that, or they're just poopy-heads. :P
Oct. 12th, 2006 06:09 am (UTC)
Anyone who makes fun of you (even subtly) for graduating from college doesn't deserve to have their opinions listened to. Ever.

Don't mind them, though. They're just subconsciously jealous that you're interesting and they're not. You are quite the cool person.
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