How would he have reacted to me being ready to graduate college? What would he have thought? And why the hell can't I know for sure? Who decided I didn't need my father anymore? Who decided that I needed to go through the rest of my life, through all of the major events of my life, wondering what Dad would have thought?
Dammit...and I can't find Matt to talk to him, because of everything else, and he probably wouldn't be able to do much anyway, and...dammit, I can't do this.